Being a closed-off person is all okay until you start going through stuff. You keep picking yourself up when you're feeling low; each time you do that on your own, it takes a bit out of you. If all else isn’t well mentally, emotionally, spiritually (all the ally’s), it can really take a toll on you.
I've never been one to react much, be it good, exciting, frightening or bad situations; it’s mostly internal. Maybe that's why I barely get taken seriously when I speak up on something I feel seriously about. Sigh.
I realised that after hitting rock-bottom a few times (and still trying to solve and deal with things on my own), I didn’t have much left to pull myself back up; then I started to feel defeated. I had accepted defeat. Pulling yourself out of a place of accepted defeat is extremely difficult; I wish I could have spoken up about things sooner or asked for help. It’s a bit far gone but it’s still not too late, it's never too late.
It’s okay to need help; no one man is an island. I’m still learning; I feel uneasy looking to someone other than myself for answers. However, I need to because I obviously don’t know it all and you probably don’t either. If we don’t seek help when necessary, we can be buried by problems which could have been solved if only they were first shared (with the right people).
Problems watered with worry only grow rapidly out of control. It’s okay to need help, it’s okay to ask.